Date: March 24, 2020
US: 46158 New: 3467 Deaths: 583 New: 18
Texas: 826 New: 107 Deaths: 9 New: 2
Well, guess who’s sick? Yep. I don’t think it’s the Coronavirus, I’ve been avoiding a cold that my children have been passing around for the last 10 days, and it finally caught me. Ugh. It’s mostly just inconvenient, so I really shouldn’t complain. We had already sort of set up the shed for a quarantine area should my husband get sick, so here I am, in the shed.
This morning the County Judge issued a “Stay at Home Order”, which means all non-essential business should stop. I’m not sure how much this really changes things, so it doesn’t really bother me. Honestly, I think she should have done this last week, but I’m trying not to judge her decisions because I don’t have the same information as she does.
As for my anxiety, it’s actually a little better today, ironically. It just feels like we’re doing all of the things we can, and at this point we just need to trust God. I’ve been boldly praying for a Passover for my family, that we would not be touched by this virus, but lately I’ve been thinking what I really want is for us to have a mild form of the virus that we get over without a long term consequence so that we are able to help others without worry. It feels weird even typing that, but my greatest fear right now is to bring the virus to my Aunt or William unknowingly, and if I’ve already had it that wouldn’t be a concern anymore, ya know? It’s such a crazy, crazy world.
I am also starting to have people in my circle who are touched by this virus and when I was talking to my Aunt yesterday I told her it feels like I’m in an episode of Lost in Space- “Danger, Danger Will Robinson, danger everywhere!” I know I’m not the only one who is battling this fear mindset right now. It’s a daily battle, sometimes a minute to minute battle.
I have a friend on Facebook who posted a picture of a poster she made for her house. I might do the same- it’s a personalized version of Psalm 91-
My family dwells in the shelter of the Most High and we will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. We will say of the LORD, “He is our refuge and our fortress, our God, in whom we trust.” Surely He will save us from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover us with His feathers, and under His wings we will find refuge; His faithfulness will be our shield and rampart. We will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at our side, ten thousand at our right hand, but it will not come near us. We will only observe with our eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. If we make the Most High our dwelling– even the LORD, who is our refuge– then no harm will befall us, no disaster will come near our tent. For He will command his angels concerning us to guard us in all our ways; they will lift us up in their hands, so that we will not strike our foot against a stone. We will tread upon the lion and the cobra; We will trample the great lion and the serpent. “Because they love me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue them; I will protect them, for He acknowledges our names. They will call upon me, and I will answer them; I will be with them in trouble, I will deliver them and honor them. With long life will I satisfy them and show them my salvation.”